Gladly, love dies away... The leftovers don't taste so good any longer. WHOMEVER we may meet again, the love will DESTROY US ALL... WE shall fall for the same MISTAKE. Can anyone STAY WITH US FOREVER? I'm sorry to declare that noone stays with us forever. However, there are some people whom can LOVE US FOREVER. I respect their choice. They can love ME on their own due to the fact that I HAVE REACHED AT THE CRISIS OF BEING 35. I feel very down and I'M VERY VERY VERY DEPRESSED THAT I DO NOT TALK TO ANYONE IN REAL LIFE. EVEN IN CYBER LIFE, I INTERACT WITH NO ONE. I FEEL VERY BAD.
LOVE is a stage of self destruction. I NEED TO HEAL MY ALL WOUNDS BY MYSELF. I AM VERY DETERMINED TO DO IT AND IT WILL TAKE 10 OR 15 YEARS TO HEAL ALL THE WOUNDS REGARDING LOVE, BUT THEN I WILL FALL FOR SOMEONE ELSE. IF HE STAYS WITH ME FOREVER, HE CAN STAY... IT WILL BE A CLEAN AND A NEAT PAGE FOR ME...
LASTLY, I move on forward. I walk forward and I CRY TOO MUCH. FOR YEARS, I HAD NEVER CRIED LIKE THAT BEFORE. CRYING IS THE HEALING AND I GUESS I AM HEALING DAY BY DAY. I FEEL VERY OLD AND UGLY... I FEEL SO DOWN, I FEEL SO DOWN AND I FEEL SO DOWN. I CRY SO MUCH AND I AM STILL UNSURE ABOUT HOW I REALLY FEEL... IT DOESN'T MATTER. I GUESS THEY ALL REALLY LOST ME FOREVER...
THEY ALL WILL GET SUPRISED THAT I NEVER WRITE ANY WORD TO THEM. DIDN'T THEY PUSH ME AWAY DUE TO MY BEING CRAZY? SO, THE CRAZY ONE IS GONE FOREVER...
THEY WILL BE GONE SOON FROM MY MEMORIES, TOO. LIFE IS QUITE PROBLEMATIC THAT I CAN NOT LIVE WITH A VERY HEAVY BAGGAGE ON MY SHOULDERS.
AS I AM A FREE SOUL, MY SOUL LIKES SOLITUDE. SO, LET IT BE...
I DOUBT THAT I WILL WRITE EVEN A ROMANTIC POEM IN JANUARY ON MY BLOG BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO DISAPPEAR. CYBER LIFE MAKES ME BORED, TOO. I GET BORED OF EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE THAT I USED TO LOVE A LOT.
WHATEVER IS THE NEW PATH, IT WILL BEGIN...
BYE...
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